I am Abhishek Mishra, age 20,
looks average
height average
college average
scores average
so perfect plans to settle for an :-
average job
average marriage
average kids
WHAT AN UGLY THOUGHT TO BEGIN WITH...
Yes Maybe! Or..
What a beautiful way to begin with, acknowledging my reality, under-estimating my success but doing so coz they are so so so small in front of my dreams!
And there i come at this word... DREAM!
I have dreams like you, i dont like working for them maybe coz i underestimate the happiness and satisfaction i will get out of pursuing them leave reaching them! Yes! I am sacrificing them for instant gratifications - food, girls, money, winning arguments, feeling lazy! Being into them all, I have realized over and over again that the more they appear glowy from outside, the more demanding and sometimes ill-effecting they are!
So these are traps for me stopping me from actually executing my dreams, unfortunately i have chosen to stay inside this trap for the cheese and the more i eat this cheese, the more it causes me stomach aches, the more i want to go out but i wont... and then after a while, i eat the cheese again!
So loops goes on...
You should go out of trap boy, leaving behind your miseries, go make that move!!! Says everyother of you listening to my (our) story! But then i ask...
Why to go? What do i want?
Am i really doing it for satisfaction or is it my urge to have a life full of more pleasure, so more traps! Is it to boost my ego, to build myself a comfort zone! Why?
Most funny is when i meet people as old as 70 on meditation camps and ask them why spirituality? to which they say, it is key to more fulfilled life.
Fulfilled in what respect?
Like, more smile to my face!
Good, so give examples, what can bring you to ecstacy?
okay, some take few minutes to few days to come out with this -
I need it coz I want to be successful at work, family and society! ( So i want money, respect and authority, now i smile! too old to come out of trap!) I will write a post some day addressing confusions with spirituality!
So, we go out of trap to fall in bigger trap and brag about how we are better than others to do so!
How depressing? How painful?
Now not coming out of it isnt an intellectual decision, its a wired decision, more like impulsive behaviour driven by sub conscious brain! kinda, dont do it you will die! Like shaking legs in public speakings! It comes from within, darkness! Coz we have been programmed that way by our surrounding!
What i will do... is to keep myself reminding of these things and my dream, most importantly my dream! A dream is as personal to you as your bath, your personal moves how you move your hands, how do you wash your hands, legs or what sequence you follow! how much pressure you allow, you know what i mean!!! A dreams even more personal i will say...
"Every time you say, hi! i am abhishek mishra , this is how close and personal a dream is! Yes your dream is you..!"
So i dont know when will i start the work for my dream, its certainly not a blog, its something else! I will write of it when i am happy sometime...
You can comment me to tell me what do you want me to write, then i will have more inspiration to write again! otherwise, I AM SKEPTICAL...
looks average
height average
college average
scores average
so perfect plans to settle for an :-
average job
average marriage
average kids
WHAT AN UGLY THOUGHT TO BEGIN WITH...
Yes Maybe! Or..
What a beautiful way to begin with, acknowledging my reality, under-estimating my success but doing so coz they are so so so small in front of my dreams!
And there i come at this word... DREAM!
I have dreams like you, i dont like working for them maybe coz i underestimate the happiness and satisfaction i will get out of pursuing them leave reaching them! Yes! I am sacrificing them for instant gratifications - food, girls, money, winning arguments, feeling lazy! Being into them all, I have realized over and over again that the more they appear glowy from outside, the more demanding and sometimes ill-effecting they are!
So these are traps for me stopping me from actually executing my dreams, unfortunately i have chosen to stay inside this trap for the cheese and the more i eat this cheese, the more it causes me stomach aches, the more i want to go out but i wont... and then after a while, i eat the cheese again!
So loops goes on...
You should go out of trap boy, leaving behind your miseries, go make that move!!! Says everyother of you listening to my (our) story! But then i ask...
Why to go? What do i want?
Am i really doing it for satisfaction or is it my urge to have a life full of more pleasure, so more traps! Is it to boost my ego, to build myself a comfort zone! Why?
Most funny is when i meet people as old as 70 on meditation camps and ask them why spirituality? to which they say, it is key to more fulfilled life.
Fulfilled in what respect?
Like, more smile to my face!
Good, so give examples, what can bring you to ecstacy?
okay, some take few minutes to few days to come out with this -
I need it coz I want to be successful at work, family and society! ( So i want money, respect and authority, now i smile! too old to come out of trap!) I will write a post some day addressing confusions with spirituality!
So, we go out of trap to fall in bigger trap and brag about how we are better than others to do so!
How depressing? How painful?
Now not coming out of it isnt an intellectual decision, its a wired decision, more like impulsive behaviour driven by sub conscious brain! kinda, dont do it you will die! Like shaking legs in public speakings! It comes from within, darkness! Coz we have been programmed that way by our surrounding!
What i will do... is to keep myself reminding of these things and my dream, most importantly my dream! A dream is as personal to you as your bath, your personal moves how you move your hands, how do you wash your hands, legs or what sequence you follow! how much pressure you allow, you know what i mean!!! A dreams even more personal i will say...
"Every time you say, hi! i am abhishek mishra , this is how close and personal a dream is! Yes your dream is you..!"
So i dont know when will i start the work for my dream, its certainly not a blog, its something else! I will write of it when i am happy sometime...
You can comment me to tell me what do you want me to write, then i will have more inspiration to write again! otherwise, I AM SKEPTICAL...
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