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Thursday, October 20, 2016

Selfish

One is me rest is mine. My people, my places, my goods, my life, my choice... my problems, my smile! It seems like i am selfish to the core! but theres something else that happens too...

my love... this love separates you from my so quickly that you feel it was a lie you were living with for so many years! You are sitting, everything you call yours is alongside, have it have it have it!!! but you don't want to have it anymore... what? why? isn't this all you need... selfish!

No!!! I want that feeling... that feeling where i was... i was complete! you know complete? haaaahh i feel so relaxed kind of feeling! That feeling to have which you can trade your everything, everything, existence! That feeling is so fine that you close your eyes and say - i feel so peaceful inside and i think i will sleep but i won't let myself sleep for if i sleep i might lose this feeling! This feeling isn't about the time when hero chases heroine, not about the time when heroine leaves the hero, it is about the time when heroine lies next to our hero. When she is sleeping next to him and you are sitting beside supporting her... when your own arm hurts by her weight but you are flying. 

One is life, one is the way this life works, one is you and one is your love! love is your neutral state. Imagine you reach in a class and sit there for years continuously, everything that was rubbish to you at first is offered to you as the obvious truth, you fail to grasp it and then others laugh at you, spit at you even try and harm you, they do it until you aren't one of them... the same!!! now even if you go out of the class, you have changed and you will behave differently! Its fine but what if thats not the truth, what if truth is what you had at first place, before entering the class? 

It isn't the most profitable thing to fall in love but it is the greatest experience of ones life, human life! It is why you are here, to love someone so deeply so madly that you become unafraid, you become selfish so as to know where your benefit lies - in her smile, in her satisfaction, in her life! 

Are you really selfish?

Tuesday, October 4, 2016

Does it Matter?

Does it Matter?
You have 5000 Facebook Friends and 15k Twitter Followers, does it matter?

You have a Lover who is absent when you need someone the most, does it matter?
You Abuse People on other side of border while they do the same, does it matter?
You browse your facebook wall for hours laughing on memes, does it matter?
You avoid someones call and are busy sleeping on work, does it matter?
You cry for being taken for granted by everyone ignoring the only person who runs behind you, does 
it matter?
You dont have time for your family coz you have to go out with friends, does it matter?
You have to insult someone to feel superior but when he does that to you, you call it unfair, does it matter?
You hate Reporters screaming wrong things on screen, turn off the TV to shout at your wife for a hair in food, does it matter?
You hurl someone with all what you have to say and later when you feel sorry, you cant say that due to your ego, does it matter?
You scold your kids to do their homework when they get back home from school while sit eating chips in front of TV when you come back from work or on holidays, does it matter?
You blame them for not hiring you while you would have done worse when at their position, does it matter?
You ask kids to be creative and beat them when they make creative excuses for not doing their homework, does it matter?
You love the army for their contribution to society and hate them for having so many allowances and waivers, does it matter?
Your Parents teach you to walk past beggers without eye contacting and ill-fame you when you do that to them when they get old, does it matter?
Your parents want you to marry rich settled guy and leave the one who 'just' loves you and hates you when you leave them to have more space in your house, does it matter?
You post about that sentimental movie about sufferings of a mother while you and your wife talks shit about your old mother's complaint who is only in house to take care of your kid, does it matter?
You like posts saying girl wants a guy who respects them and is sensitive yet secretly loves the guy with beefy muscles and wallet, does it matter?
You post happy selfies on facebook but never the ones about your failures or sadness and wonder why people behave so fake on social sites, does it matter?
You preach falling in love when you are with him and after your breakup, tell people about how useless all this love thing is, its all about sex, does it matter?
You talk of women empowerment but change the compartment when he is staring at you for long, does it matter?
You talk about consumer rights only until you arent part of a business, does it matter?
You get upset for not having enough views on Youtube video you made but only go for a movie if it has Salman Khan in it, does it matter?

Again, does it matter?

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