These days my mind is on a different level all together. A few days back, I felt that Its the best time to have myself a laptop and to make situation worse, I want a Macbook Pro also called MBP. Reasons are many but for now i will say those are enough for me to be obsessive about it!
Its difficult to be obsessive sometimes? But in my case, I can make it happen to myself. I can force myself into thinking something exclusively only to find that in two days, I am at a position where i am doped by the idea and feel that i can die for the thing to happen! And I am sure it happens to everybody! Okay but since this is MBP and here in India, Apples treated as a luxury which is bought to show your status superiority and why not? Its a 90k Laptop that can do the same things that a 30-40k can do so why would someone spend extra 50k... SHOW OFF? And the sorry state is that Apple Products are brought in India to show off! However, I have my reasons as i said and for that i feel even a 2 Lac Laptop is worth it!
So here I am with 5k in hands thinking about a product which is 20 times the money that i have in hands. Whats worse is still my desire of owning an Iphone 6s coz my 4s is getting obsolete tonight given tonight in two hours we will have WWDC 2016 and iOs 10 wont be provided on iPhone 4s and it will be out of the chain then! :(
Anyhow, So, I want alot of money for some products and for some dreams but I dont have money which exactly isnt the worst place to be on this planet however it comes close to that! The worse thing is...
TO BE DRIVEN YET DEPENDENT!
Both of these things cannot happen together, never! If you feel somehow that you are driven yet you are fine depending on someone, double check the importance of that dream in your life? Are you really hungry and foolish? And then by my own experience, The process of independence isnt easy since it is very very uncomfortable! I wonder if after fighting for India's Independence, Gandhi is sitting inside the ashram smoking his weed and saying - mazak mazak mein freedom to le li, par ab kya? hamse na ho paega!!! ( We took the rein of India half jokingly only to realise the way ahead is uncomfortable!)
And it is... If the patriotic in you just woke and criticized me for taking independence jokingly, I would like you to listen to people who say... We were better under Britishers and also hear those who believe India would have been another Iraq under muslims! My point is... Independence may be difficult to achieve but its super difficult to withstand it! Its human nature to love living under dictatorship, we like being ruled coz that makes us less responsible for all the bad happening in our lives and we can blame! Doubtful? Then tell me what will you prefer more for your kid? School or Studying at home? College or dropping out? Family or Hippy?
Independence can be hard in your pockets to keep but its the one thing you absolutely need more than anything else for a life that Steve Jobs lived, Vivekananda did or maybe Socrates did (read about him, he will amaze you!)
So if you are sleeping its fine, you can sleep and keep sleeping in a rathole for your life but i am sure once you wake up, you will want to move, look outside and then walk out and even run! Its unimaginable to stay in closet for long once you are up, so its impossible to stay dependent when you are driven!
Coming back to MBP, I am driven to have one but i am financially dependent! So i am sitting here and writing to you...
FROM THE WORST PLACE ON THIS PLANET?
maybe... but you know what? I will get it one day and when on that day, I will look back to this post and this place on this planet which i just called worst, I will know that I loved each moment i used to check amazon for macbooks updated price, I am sure coz i feel like this for so many things i once needed so much? Now i have most of them and now i know I was better before... :)
It's the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting. What after it comes true?
So i know i should enjoy right now, this state but i cant and thats the Worst place on this planet to live... NO? Imagine having sex and not enjoying it? Yeah... Its that worse...
Its difficult to be obsessive sometimes? But in my case, I can make it happen to myself. I can force myself into thinking something exclusively only to find that in two days, I am at a position where i am doped by the idea and feel that i can die for the thing to happen! And I am sure it happens to everybody! Okay but since this is MBP and here in India, Apples treated as a luxury which is bought to show your status superiority and why not? Its a 90k Laptop that can do the same things that a 30-40k can do so why would someone spend extra 50k... SHOW OFF? And the sorry state is that Apple Products are brought in India to show off! However, I have my reasons as i said and for that i feel even a 2 Lac Laptop is worth it!
So here I am with 5k in hands thinking about a product which is 20 times the money that i have in hands. Whats worse is still my desire of owning an Iphone 6s coz my 4s is getting obsolete tonight given tonight in two hours we will have WWDC 2016 and iOs 10 wont be provided on iPhone 4s and it will be out of the chain then! :(
Anyhow, So, I want alot of money for some products and for some dreams but I dont have money which exactly isnt the worst place to be on this planet however it comes close to that! The worse thing is...
TO BE DRIVEN YET DEPENDENT!
Both of these things cannot happen together, never! If you feel somehow that you are driven yet you are fine depending on someone, double check the importance of that dream in your life? Are you really hungry and foolish? And then by my own experience, The process of independence isnt easy since it is very very uncomfortable! I wonder if after fighting for India's Independence, Gandhi is sitting inside the ashram smoking his weed and saying - mazak mazak mein freedom to le li, par ab kya? hamse na ho paega!!! ( We took the rein of India half jokingly only to realise the way ahead is uncomfortable!)
And it is... If the patriotic in you just woke and criticized me for taking independence jokingly, I would like you to listen to people who say... We were better under Britishers and also hear those who believe India would have been another Iraq under muslims! My point is... Independence may be difficult to achieve but its super difficult to withstand it! Its human nature to love living under dictatorship, we like being ruled coz that makes us less responsible for all the bad happening in our lives and we can blame! Doubtful? Then tell me what will you prefer more for your kid? School or Studying at home? College or dropping out? Family or Hippy?
Independence can be hard in your pockets to keep but its the one thing you absolutely need more than anything else for a life that Steve Jobs lived, Vivekananda did or maybe Socrates did (read about him, he will amaze you!)
So if you are sleeping its fine, you can sleep and keep sleeping in a rathole for your life but i am sure once you wake up, you will want to move, look outside and then walk out and even run! Its unimaginable to stay in closet for long once you are up, so its impossible to stay dependent when you are driven!
Coming back to MBP, I am driven to have one but i am financially dependent! So i am sitting here and writing to you...
FROM THE WORST PLACE ON THIS PLANET?
maybe... but you know what? I will get it one day and when on that day, I will look back to this post and this place on this planet which i just called worst, I will know that I loved each moment i used to check amazon for macbooks updated price, I am sure coz i feel like this for so many things i once needed so much? Now i have most of them and now i know I was better before... :)
It's the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting. What after it comes true?
So i know i should enjoy right now, this state but i cant and thats the Worst place on this planet to live... NO? Imagine having sex and not enjoying it? Yeah... Its that worse...
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