Somewhere in the month of August 7 years back, i was in my 9th standard and my teachers were in love with me. They loved me so much that they decided to push me up to contest in competitions. One of my teacher gave in my name for the zonal hindi competition! theres this something i can never understand about teachers - a guy is good at studies - that is giving exams - that is he knows how to rote everything and vomit it over the exam paper, this is one art he is good at, now what makes these taskmasters feel that this same person is equally good at addressing people or expressing himself on stage! Sincerity or acting to be sincere and being skilful are two different things!
I was forcefully signedup in for this competition - a hindi extempore! while going in for the venue, i got to know about this girl from the other section who was also going with me! Two people from each school…. cool!!! was taken to a different school and there just before the competition we were informed that not two but only one can compete to which already shaking me looked into the eyes of this girl and said - listen! sacrifice is just a nine letter word, today i will make one for you!
I was sitting among the audience watching this amazing girl speak first, not even shaking but so confident so much in the groove and her topic was indian villages and the way she was defining the villages was absolutely so soothing… i missed mine for a while and then kept staring at her!
She won the competition that day and my heart too… Very soon i also got to know that she scored 79 in the maths test out of 80 where i scored 50! Then surprisingly i found that she lived near my house and she is into the same tuition class i am planning to go in!!! In no days, i was completely into it what i then considered the blissful love!!! She had all captured me and my fantasies!
Now i wanted to see her get noticed and be around her! I calculated that this isn't much possible except the morning assemblies, the games period and our instrument room where both sections used to go! But i needed more, so i decided - I WILL GO FOR MORE SPEAKING COMPETITIONS AND THEN MAYBE I’LL GET TO SEE HER! And then i signed up for another competitions happening and she was there… i stood up on stage and froze… even my heart that melted for her was froze… THANK YOU and came down! Love is love and so it is unreasonable and i decided to come go again… i lost a total of 10 times and she was always in the top 3 getting certificate - I was fortunately never noticed! The 11th time i remember i came 3rd and then suddenly 1st, 1st, 1st!!! WOW… She noticed me, as a threat to her certificates!
Later on i kinda proposed her kinda was turned down, she started hating me and made me feel all amazing for even telling her that i think i love her but there was something that has changed and evolved for better! Later on i went on to find someone who loved me madly and left me being even more madly - while this girl was leaving she said this one thing to me - SO I HAVE DANCE AND 4 BOYS BEHIND ME. WHAT ARE YOU ALL ABOUT? ME? REALLY… WHY SHOULD I EVEN LOVE SOMEONE WHO HAS NO BACKBONE? WHO ARE YOU?
People will come and walk down your life but footsteps will last forever! I suddenly realised that one thing i came first first first at was standing on stage and speaking - i had always done it for someone else but maybe… maybe i can do it for myself once! Afraid me came to the first meeting of Toastmasters in October last year! I stood on the stage and in front of everyone spoke about my feedback as a guest! First time in my life i had spoken for myself, about how i feel really, about who i am… in front of me were some morons taking me serious much like today! There was no afterparty back from DOTM but there was Manik and his tales, there was satisfaction and a mail asking me to be esteemed member of the club that meets on friday at YMCA PORTA CABIN!
I was in no time taking up roles, two at a time - i was winning back certificates and told about my energy on stage! Then happened the EC election, aren't we here for speaking… why do they want this so complicated? Since i was regular and Sayan is a good lawyer, i entered EC without even a single speech and a month of role takin! I gave my first speech three months from today, one speech in one term and with that speed my 10 projects will take me 5 years but no… I am getting what i am here for - People and a stage for myself!
I was forcefully signedup in for this competition - a hindi extempore! while going in for the venue, i got to know about this girl from the other section who was also going with me! Two people from each school…. cool!!! was taken to a different school and there just before the competition we were informed that not two but only one can compete to which already shaking me looked into the eyes of this girl and said - listen! sacrifice is just a nine letter word, today i will make one for you!
I was sitting among the audience watching this amazing girl speak first, not even shaking but so confident so much in the groove and her topic was indian villages and the way she was defining the villages was absolutely so soothing… i missed mine for a while and then kept staring at her!
She won the competition that day and my heart too… Very soon i also got to know that she scored 79 in the maths test out of 80 where i scored 50! Then surprisingly i found that she lived near my house and she is into the same tuition class i am planning to go in!!! In no days, i was completely into it what i then considered the blissful love!!! She had all captured me and my fantasies!
Now i wanted to see her get noticed and be around her! I calculated that this isn't much possible except the morning assemblies, the games period and our instrument room where both sections used to go! But i needed more, so i decided - I WILL GO FOR MORE SPEAKING COMPETITIONS AND THEN MAYBE I’LL GET TO SEE HER! And then i signed up for another competitions happening and she was there… i stood up on stage and froze… even my heart that melted for her was froze… THANK YOU and came down! Love is love and so it is unreasonable and i decided to come go again… i lost a total of 10 times and she was always in the top 3 getting certificate - I was fortunately never noticed! The 11th time i remember i came 3rd and then suddenly 1st, 1st, 1st!!! WOW… She noticed me, as a threat to her certificates!
Later on i kinda proposed her kinda was turned down, she started hating me and made me feel all amazing for even telling her that i think i love her but there was something that has changed and evolved for better! Later on i went on to find someone who loved me madly and left me being even more madly - while this girl was leaving she said this one thing to me - SO I HAVE DANCE AND 4 BOYS BEHIND ME. WHAT ARE YOU ALL ABOUT? ME? REALLY… WHY SHOULD I EVEN LOVE SOMEONE WHO HAS NO BACKBONE? WHO ARE YOU?
People will come and walk down your life but footsteps will last forever! I suddenly realised that one thing i came first first first at was standing on stage and speaking - i had always done it for someone else but maybe… maybe i can do it for myself once! Afraid me came to the first meeting of Toastmasters in October last year! I stood on the stage and in front of everyone spoke about my feedback as a guest! First time in my life i had spoken for myself, about how i feel really, about who i am… in front of me were some morons taking me serious much like today! There was no afterparty back from DOTM but there was Manik and his tales, there was satisfaction and a mail asking me to be esteemed member of the club that meets on friday at YMCA PORTA CABIN!
I was in no time taking up roles, two at a time - i was winning back certificates and told about my energy on stage! Then happened the EC election, aren't we here for speaking… why do they want this so complicated? Since i was regular and Sayan is a good lawyer, i entered EC without even a single speech and a month of role takin! I gave my first speech three months from today, one speech in one term and with that speed my 10 projects will take me 5 years but no… I am getting what i am here for - People and a stage for myself!
And then as i stand 16 days away from adulthood, i want to thank the girl who inspired me on that day and was beautiful enough to fight myself to end up on stage, bear failure until i started winning! Thank you… you taught me how to win! Another girl who loved me to eternity and left me perhaps for my own good… thank you for being there when no one was and leaving me on this side with kisses, a warm hug and so much to look forward to! And thank you toastmasters, specifically my family at DOTM, you people gave me a stage and your time!
A person is no more than what he has to offer. And as i turn 21, as i decide to move towards a life away from pain and pleasures to a life of satisfaction - i bow down all who helped me grow, for your attention even if you wanted to beat me you attended me, this is love what you gave me and as for love -
Love arrives exactly when love is supposed to
And love leaves exactly when love must
A person is no more than what he has to offer. And as i turn 21, as i decide to move towards a life away from pain and pleasures to a life of satisfaction - i bow down all who helped me grow, for your attention even if you wanted to beat me you attended me, this is love what you gave me and as for love -
Love arrives exactly when love is supposed to
And love leaves exactly when love must
When love arrives say,
"Welcome, make yourself comfortable"
If love leaves, ask her to leave the door open behind her
Turn off the music, listen to the quiet
Whisper,
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