To,
Ishita Bharti (The one i knew of course)
Love,
Thanks for finding time to read my words, my words all these years have been uttered for you wherever I was, whatever I was doing. Everything i said was said with you in my heart, my thoughts. I love this feeling, it makes me feel belonged, that i belong to you.
The time we have spent together is enough for me for many lifetimes to come. The forest that you lit to fire is still burning me and it seems like there's no stopping in times to come, only if i don't fly away now! Even when i think of the times you were in my arms and the time i have spent being in love without your presence there seems no difference. In fact the fragrance of your love is more evident after you passed. Our love was reckless, a way of life to me now. I loved myself in your company - carefree, reckless and passionate. I was driven from my soul by your soul to love you, like I have never loved anyone. Won't it be fair to say that i loved you more than myself and upon losing you, I lost myself forever?
5 Years Ago, we first sat and talked for the first time. You felt the same connection as i did and it was exciting. The potential of understanding each other was immense and both of us immediately knew this will last for very long. I still remember that feeling when i was about to leave and you were at the gate seeing me off, both of us were sad and i realised that for sometime, i have literally forgotten I had a life away from you. How can a experience be this defining and now i realise, it was, for me of course! It changed my life. Everything in my life felt like preparation for me to meet you and settle. Every prize, every achievement and every confusion melted that day when i saw your vulnerable eyes as you told me how incapable you are of stopping yourself from falling in love with me. For me, you were my dream come true and i would never forget the day it all happened!
I did nothing for us, that feeling acted out of me. I am not a mad boy who was so desperate that he would suddenly start loving a girl and forget everything else, there are reasons, the ones we fail to understand most of the times. I cannot justify what all I did for you but I still remember how that state was half conscious and half sleepy, I was not controlling my life at all, I was just doing what this love story had in its pages.
Yet when you left and the way you left, I have failed to see the magic in it. We met like magic and loved each other like magic but the story of our separation is ordinary and this bites me like nothing else.
Ishu, Life is so much more than what we can see and i believe it's certainly very little to act ordinary. I am here to live a life that's magical, extraordinary in every way possible. I feel i will not live for very long, this is just a feeling i have like many other but if that's the case, know that we are all same yet so different in the way we live. We all are here to do somethings and there's no way we can know what those things are in advance. All we can do is to behave, respond and instinctively live out our years. My instincts made me fall in love with you and stay in love with the idea of you for 5 years but it's time for me to move on. Move On from the belief that we were all I had in my plate of love. From the idea that you are superior and your place in my life is above everything else. It's not as if i want to think this way but i have no option, i can't continue fully and live fully if i think otherwise.
For you, I wish you happiness wherever you are. I wish you love wherever you are and I wish you a lot of understanding of life, the world and about yourself. You are a nice person and you deserve a lot more than what you are settling yourself for. Don't worry about me, I will do fine wherever I go, whatever I do. I promise to be hopelessly romantic and in love with life wherever I am!
Abye
Yours Loving
Abhishek Mishra (The One who belonged to you)
Ishita Bharti (The one i knew of course)
Love,
Thanks for finding time to read my words, my words all these years have been uttered for you wherever I was, whatever I was doing. Everything i said was said with you in my heart, my thoughts. I love this feeling, it makes me feel belonged, that i belong to you.
The time we have spent together is enough for me for many lifetimes to come. The forest that you lit to fire is still burning me and it seems like there's no stopping in times to come, only if i don't fly away now! Even when i think of the times you were in my arms and the time i have spent being in love without your presence there seems no difference. In fact the fragrance of your love is more evident after you passed. Our love was reckless, a way of life to me now. I loved myself in your company - carefree, reckless and passionate. I was driven from my soul by your soul to love you, like I have never loved anyone. Won't it be fair to say that i loved you more than myself and upon losing you, I lost myself forever?
5 Years Ago, we first sat and talked for the first time. You felt the same connection as i did and it was exciting. The potential of understanding each other was immense and both of us immediately knew this will last for very long. I still remember that feeling when i was about to leave and you were at the gate seeing me off, both of us were sad and i realised that for sometime, i have literally forgotten I had a life away from you. How can a experience be this defining and now i realise, it was, for me of course! It changed my life. Everything in my life felt like preparation for me to meet you and settle. Every prize, every achievement and every confusion melted that day when i saw your vulnerable eyes as you told me how incapable you are of stopping yourself from falling in love with me. For me, you were my dream come true and i would never forget the day it all happened!
I did nothing for us, that feeling acted out of me. I am not a mad boy who was so desperate that he would suddenly start loving a girl and forget everything else, there are reasons, the ones we fail to understand most of the times. I cannot justify what all I did for you but I still remember how that state was half conscious and half sleepy, I was not controlling my life at all, I was just doing what this love story had in its pages.
Yet when you left and the way you left, I have failed to see the magic in it. We met like magic and loved each other like magic but the story of our separation is ordinary and this bites me like nothing else.
Ishu, Life is so much more than what we can see and i believe it's certainly very little to act ordinary. I am here to live a life that's magical, extraordinary in every way possible. I feel i will not live for very long, this is just a feeling i have like many other but if that's the case, know that we are all same yet so different in the way we live. We all are here to do somethings and there's no way we can know what those things are in advance. All we can do is to behave, respond and instinctively live out our years. My instincts made me fall in love with you and stay in love with the idea of you for 5 years but it's time for me to move on. Move On from the belief that we were all I had in my plate of love. From the idea that you are superior and your place in my life is above everything else. It's not as if i want to think this way but i have no option, i can't continue fully and live fully if i think otherwise.
For you, I wish you happiness wherever you are. I wish you love wherever you are and I wish you a lot of understanding of life, the world and about yourself. You are a nice person and you deserve a lot more than what you are settling yourself for. Don't worry about me, I will do fine wherever I go, whatever I do. I promise to be hopelessly romantic and in love with life wherever I am!
Abye
Yours Loving
Abhishek Mishra (The One who belonged to you)
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