The Departure

and here comes... The Departure!

I have mixed emotions but mostly i am sad. I just read how i felt for a girl i met in school which was almost 5 years back and how i have failed to occupy myself away from her. Life is a gift, it is and to somehow make a grand out of it is amazing - nothing waits and everything awaits for you. 

I am fed up of the monotonous think routine, beliefs and complexions. I am even fed up of celebrating what felt really awesome once and feel this is the best time to dethrone myself of the laurels. What kind of life do you expect to live when you love the cradle and pyre equally?

It took me sometime to understand and be who i am, for last 10 years i lived with the belief that i will die pretty soon, precisely 22. But i am alive and still not lively as of now. The energy in me wants me to free myself up for the action that lies ahead and i am going to listen to it. 22 and the death and it's affects are leaving me, only permanently now. Bye Bye Atul Mama! You were wonderful and i have taken down your debt. Rest In Peace.

Ishita Bharti, you have been bid my abye extensively and to be dead honest, i dont care about you at all. The longing was a personal milestone and i have used the furnace to burn myself and purify of the egoistic demands. I am a done piece. Have a great life, live long and never ever come on the verge of realising your lose! God Bless You.

And the last good bye is the toughest one, it's for me. And i write,

To, 

Abhishek Kr. Mishra

1 May 1996 - 12 November 2018 (22 Yrs)

Dear Abhishek,

Purpose of life is a trap you were caught in and if its a journey, the end is always death. In your mind, by your notions and intellect - you had a purpose, to die after all. Your legendary heroes went on to stay back in your head even after they left their bodies but you never sat down and laid down your plans to leave yourself behind after you die, maybe you were confused enough. 

And confused is how i will define you lately, very confused. The voice in your head got bleak as you aged, veiled on by your urge to procreate maybe or to act out weakness. Weak, confused and Drama - If this is how you are defined how would you feel - that maybe Steve deserved a better grand son, look Steve here would feel the same. You were the Rakhi Sawant in your life and your character really showed that. Imagine how Steve would behave around you, he would want to kill you anyway. 

But those 22 years were well lived by, on some standards for sure. The Sporadic bursts of energy led you to achieve things really lower strata cannot imagine, you were special for them. Another feat is you know how to manage yourself when you are special, a chance you will get more often than the past allowed. I felt you loved hard, you hated hard and you had better explanations than the rest. But you always forgot what brought you where in the first place and wasted your time stuck at some point of your lives that was hugely unnecessary. 

Strong. Clear and Impactful is what we want out of you - done in a way thats original to you. You might feel ashamed if you read your blog over and over again as you realise you were the one big asshole in your life. The maxims had to be defined, they werent.

It's time to go, we bid you abye and see you on the next side of life, experience the departure and have a safe journey. 

From 

Life.