a note to myself

I like the way I think about this world. I am not looking for lime light but inner growth and satisfaction clearly. I enjoy people, their validation and solving their problems.

I don't see myself putting enough of me into something that can shape me. That is disappointing.
What upsets me is the lack of work I put into something I should have. I like to follow my instincts but when the action is blocked by -

confusion
lack of energy
feeling low

then it starts to feel as if I don't have the drive. I start blaming myself for all the bad that I am going through.

what I want to do?
I am here to do MBA, I want to learn these new concepts and back myself. I want to learn music and by the end of the two years, be an ace in guitar, piano and vocals. I see myself working on musical programming, creating videos and performing live by the end of these two years here at Ranchi. Meanwhile, I want to learn the art of marketing, economics, handling money, psychology.

I want to work on myself mentally - working on changing the ways of my life I am not proud of.