Dear Ishita,
3 Years back, right on this day we met at the City Centre and it was pretty clear that we are breaking up. The reason was pretty simple, it wasn't because we were fed up of each other but we were quite happy in what we had and probably were so indulged in the relationship that it was taking a toll on the other half of our life. I was a kid and It was yes, my first relationship and having seen so many examples now, the guys usually are very reckless in letting their other halves go in the first one because they think - oh it won't change much! That's wrong, it changes everything eventually and that happened with me too. 4 Months later you told me our relationship was toxic, still 4 months down and you were with someone else!
I don't know about you but I am big on promises. You made me a promise that we will get back together when we graduate and then I said, baby, we have been together for 2.5 years and taking a sort of break for 3 years? Would we survive this and you nodded. Of course you knew much more than me because you have seen all of this before in your other relationships and I was being immature. Had it been today, I would have done anything to save it as I was trying a few months later but of course too late! But I kept the promise for most part, I was broken but I decided not to simply jump in someone else's arms right away. I kept distance and introspected. I looked for holes. Some nights were really tough and I would want to die yet somedays were very fulfilling. All in all, I changed and you have changed as well, I have no doubt.
There are two things I want to say, one is I am sorry for being immature, for not handling my composure a lot of times and for doing all childish things because perhaps I was a kid only trying to be sure of things. Yet, I left music school and sat in gardens for you, took up a part time job and earned for the burgers we would eat, would travel all the way in metros to just see you and would take the shit of everyone for us. It's human tendency and you might not remember much of a good perhaps but I have no intentions to press this on you. The second thing I want to say is maybe we should just get back to at least talking terms. I still feel I have lost a great friend in you Ishita. I mean, you snapped me out because I wanted you back so much, you have broken up now and I am in a beautiful relationship with Karishma. Still, I want back my friend, I deserve her and she deserves me. Maybe we can sit back and take a look at how idiotic we were and maybe we can get angry on each other for a lot of things we must not have done to each other but at the end of the day, all we did led to this and this is so awesome Ishita.
There was a time I got to know you are in relationship with this guy called Shashank who to me looked like Vipul Bhaiya much. I saw he was an artist and I was happy for you. I never really tried to contact you then, someone recently told me about the breakup and then I have nothing to do with all this anymore. It's just that we can at least be normal now! I have respected you always, your boundaries and never tried to call you or come in your way, sorry about that weird phase where I did everything wrong but I have been a study in improvement ever since. I have written blogs, poetries, sung songs for you but all of that was kept private, you still can Read most of it if you feel like but nothing would really offend you, its all in good taste and then I would say, if you feel I have been a decent ex, let's try to get back at talking. It will only give us some positivity and won't hurt at all. That's my promise and I am big on them you know!
Abhishek
3 Years back, right on this day we met at the City Centre and it was pretty clear that we are breaking up. The reason was pretty simple, it wasn't because we were fed up of each other but we were quite happy in what we had and probably were so indulged in the relationship that it was taking a toll on the other half of our life. I was a kid and It was yes, my first relationship and having seen so many examples now, the guys usually are very reckless in letting their other halves go in the first one because they think - oh it won't change much! That's wrong, it changes everything eventually and that happened with me too. 4 Months later you told me our relationship was toxic, still 4 months down and you were with someone else!
I don't know about you but I am big on promises. You made me a promise that we will get back together when we graduate and then I said, baby, we have been together for 2.5 years and taking a sort of break for 3 years? Would we survive this and you nodded. Of course you knew much more than me because you have seen all of this before in your other relationships and I was being immature. Had it been today, I would have done anything to save it as I was trying a few months later but of course too late! But I kept the promise for most part, I was broken but I decided not to simply jump in someone else's arms right away. I kept distance and introspected. I looked for holes. Some nights were really tough and I would want to die yet somedays were very fulfilling. All in all, I changed and you have changed as well, I have no doubt.
There are two things I want to say, one is I am sorry for being immature, for not handling my composure a lot of times and for doing all childish things because perhaps I was a kid only trying to be sure of things. Yet, I left music school and sat in gardens for you, took up a part time job and earned for the burgers we would eat, would travel all the way in metros to just see you and would take the shit of everyone for us. It's human tendency and you might not remember much of a good perhaps but I have no intentions to press this on you. The second thing I want to say is maybe we should just get back to at least talking terms. I still feel I have lost a great friend in you Ishita. I mean, you snapped me out because I wanted you back so much, you have broken up now and I am in a beautiful relationship with Karishma. Still, I want back my friend, I deserve her and she deserves me. Maybe we can sit back and take a look at how idiotic we were and maybe we can get angry on each other for a lot of things we must not have done to each other but at the end of the day, all we did led to this and this is so awesome Ishita.
There was a time I got to know you are in relationship with this guy called Shashank who to me looked like Vipul Bhaiya much. I saw he was an artist and I was happy for you. I never really tried to contact you then, someone recently told me about the breakup and then I have nothing to do with all this anymore. It's just that we can at least be normal now! I have respected you always, your boundaries and never tried to call you or come in your way, sorry about that weird phase where I did everything wrong but I have been a study in improvement ever since. I have written blogs, poetries, sung songs for you but all of that was kept private, you still can Read most of it if you feel like but nothing would really offend you, its all in good taste and then I would say, if you feel I have been a decent ex, let's try to get back at talking. It will only give us some positivity and won't hurt at all. That's my promise and I am big on them you know!
Abhishek
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